Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Our Unexpected Blessing (YES!! What you think!)

I've been keeping a secret...we're expecting baby #2. I'm 14 weeks, 3 days and due May 19, 2012.

We weren't trying, but we feel so incredibly thankful for this unexpected blessing.
I've been attempting to write this post for a few weeks, but no words can adequately summarize my thoughts and feelings!! I am feeling excited, scared, and a little guilty. This is all still SO unbelievable to me, after everything that we had to go through to get pregnant with CJ! And I'm sure people will laugh at me or call me "dramatic" when I say that I feel like this pregnancy is a complete miracle. A gift from God. (I mean every pregnancy is when you really think about all the stars that have to align "just so"), but in my case...it just brings tears to my eyes thinking about it. So thankful.

Of course we are SO excited. Being a mom to CJ over the last 22 months has been wonderful. Being his Mama has been the most important thing I've ever done in my life, and I can't imagine how amazing it will be to have another child! I think that SHOCKED is the best word to describe how JT and I have been feeling. I still. can't. believe. it. I'm a little scared about the changes that will be coming for our family. Worried about being equal between two kids, showing them both adequate attention and love. I'm sure most of those feelings are normal.
But, I feel kinda guilty too. Like, I don't deserve another baby! How did this even happen!? (Okay smarty-pants people, I know how it happened, ha ha!) But I mean, since CJ's birth in January 2010, I had a period in March 2011 & one in July 2011 and then "somehow" got pregnant sometime in August 2011. Without trying!! My body "randomly" produced an egg and we "just happened" to get pregnant. I have to give all the credit to God, because I know it was all His orchestration and not random at all to Him. But, why me? There are still so many of my friends waiting for their own blessings. I'm not worthy to get TWO. I'm not taking this beautiful blessing for granted, as I continue to pray for those who are still waiting their turns.

I've had several people ask me "Why haven't you announced it yet?" (on blog, on facebook). And the sad truth is because I just kept waiting for the "other shoe to drop". To quote a blog friend, Jill, "It's the infertile in me." This pregnancy was just too easy to be real. Too good to be true.
But we are SO thankful for this miracle baby.
More details to come...
Psalm 113:9
"He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the Lord!"

9 comments:

Lori said...

Praise God from whom all Blessings flow!!!! I am so happy for you, and just in total amazement at our LORD!! You deserve this blessing so much, and my prayers will be with you!!!! YAY!!!!

The Branches said...

OMG so excited for you!!!! Yayyyyyy!!!!!!!!

Kendra said...

Lacy, I can only imagine the range of emotions. Truly. I feel that way about having perfectly healthy twins...I got TWO?? What about all the amazing, faithful women out there waiting for just ONE? So undeserving.

You are going to do wonderful being a mother of two =). And it's going to be so fun seeing CJ be a big brother!! Hope you're feeling well and can't wait to hear more!!

Jennifer said...

SO, so, SO happy for you Lacy. How absolutely thrilling! What a miracle indeed. (o: I would feel the same way if it happened for us again too. God is so good - so happy that His plan for you included another baby for your family. He is so good!

Ashley said...

I am SOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! What an awesome miracle! I know you are just thrilled and I can't wait to see a second baby as cute as CJ! He will be such a great big brother. Congratulations to you all!

Immeasurably More Mama said...

Happy news!!! :)

Jenni said...

lacy! soooo excited for you! i wish i could give you a hug! glad to see the cute belly pics return... hehe. xoxo.

Alexis said...

So sorry I'm late here! Congratulations!! God is good!!

Guy and Julie said...

I completely get being scared to announce. I might have waited til the baby delivered if I could have gotten away with it. Infertility messes with your mind, and it's hard to ever shake it, even after 2 little blessings. Again, I'm SO happy for you. This baby is a precious miracle!